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Friday, October 29, 2004

finally... the results are out. hehe... not tt we didnt noe who the winner was, but juz sth to look forward to...

the best class award is in the hands of 4G. yes, the most outstanding class tt siglap ever had... hehe. anyways, congrats my dearest classmates... we've won, despite the disagreemts we had.

Smashed into pieces at 10/29/2004 01:31:00 PM

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

i have been on task, studying. yes, i should have done so long ago, but at least its not tt late to start now...

been studyin at sch with elfi... ema joined us yesterday. coincidentally vic was also there.... it was fun, and distracting, studyin with elfi. he can really side track far. however, we did study. amazing huh?

oh yeah, my mum sorta made a fuss when she came to noe tt i was sutdyin with elfi, a boy. a mly boy. she was like asking me ques, but i chose to ignore her... wateva. so irritating.

finally met up with the table ppl yesterday.... gosh. i missed them so much. esp ali and siti. haiz... hope u guess did alrite for ur prac.. cant get over the fact tt i could actually miss u ppl.. hehe.

guess im goin thru wat i went thru the last time.... the time when i had to step down frm np. the time when i was in the pass out parade... recalling all the memories tt we had. reminding each other to keep in touch, and be close no matter wat. the results of being committed to NPCC. i hope it'll be the same with my best and close frens.. esp my classmates. the tears which i've cried together with my other squadmates made me felt gd... but the tot of not being able to share the pain and fun together anymore made us sad.

all the best to those taking bio tmr...

Smashed into pieces at 10/27/2004 02:00:00 PM

Sunday, October 24, 2004

i wont be bloggin so often coz my comp's a lil haywire... and yes, the big Os are coming... so juz wanna update now so tell ya peeps tt i wont be updating regularly.

it's my luck tt my comp can be used now.... if the comp can be used, then ill update. if not, i wont. coz there's this virus thingy tt sorta hacks into everyone's email... ya noe? u never noe if ur email acc mite have been hacked as well... so if u ever received a email under my name, it's SO not me. i dun like sending emails...

to all those taking bio pracs this thurs, esp my classmates, all the best ya? study on the food tests thingy and parts of the plant.... see ya on thurs!

let's talk abt the table ppl.

adibah- crappy. slalu kecoh.often over-reacting. nice. caring. easily worried. beautifully gorgeous. noisy.
adrena- bitch. slut. sarcastic. rich. spoilt. someone who u can really talk to when u're bored.
chin fu- aka seducer. cheerful. extremely frenly. tone tt down gal...
siti- blur. slow in reacting to stuff ard her. pretty. take things lightly. ezily bullied. someone fun to be with.
jelena- tall. weirdly smart. pretty too. unpredictable time bomb.(juz like me)
ema- full of rubbish. loud. the rest i've described in my previous posts.
shahidah- noisy. dun gives a damn bout others. "helpful", i guess. slow. full of lame jokes.
aisyah- kinda quiet. nth much bout this gal...
me- very quiet... hehe... nah. depend on my mood. kinda loud at times.
rash- extremely quiet.
syareal- fun to be ard with. pathetically farnie. kinda spastic at times. really gentleman. caring.

peeps frm da other table....
suz- bitchy. frenly. baik hait..kadang2 je.. hehe. NOISY.
liya- whiny. sweet. brand freak. helpful. striving to well in sch...
erl- hmmm... juz dun provoke her.

thank u, the table ppl. esp those tt sat with me at the same table. really gonna misss those times when we really burst out lauging, not caring abt the ppl ard us. but hey, we bring life to the dull boring canteen, rite? wil also miss those times when anwar always appraoched us, and he got ignored. hehe... sibuk je. ali, im gonna miss ur laughter, gorgeous! ad, gonna missurbitchiness.siti i will miss bullying u and playing pranks on ya. chin fu, be urelf. stop seducing! jeli, stay pretty and smart. retard, gonna miss the time when u crack ur nonsensical jokes tt brought tears to my eyes..hehe.. thanks boi.

hey table peeps, keep in touch ya...

Smashed into pieces at 10/24/2004 05:09:00 PM

Saturday, October 23, 2004

i didnt fast today... kinda sad actually. haiz... so troublesome. muz pay back again next yr... ugh.

today, nth much happened. wenta to the cpf board with mum this afternoon. tot it'd be boring, but turned out to be interesting. yeah.... there's this chap at the place who helps out ppl who have trouble doin the cpf stuff online. so, my mum appraoch 4 help.. he's nth special. onli tt his messy looked gd..hehe.

guess wat? i did chem tys today! excellent huh..? but couldnt get the correct ans..but im almost there. all i gotta do is to try harder.... ppl gd in chem, plz help me.

gotta study again... have a look at the gallery peeps... coz there's this pic where we took in the boy's toilet..interestin! adieu

Smashed into pieces at 10/23/2004 06:23:00 PM

Friday, October 22, 2004

time flies by really fast... and trust me on tt. im sure u do agree with me to a certain extent rite? i dare say tt i had my best times in secondary school life.

today was the last day of sch for us, the sec 4s. yes, we dreaded goin to sch lately. actually i think it's a lame excuse. althoguh we really cant study in sch, i really miss the times when had in class. i really want to go thru the laughter and sufferings tt we had thru b4. it's impossible, i noe. they'll juz remain as memories.

i still could recall the time my frens and i went jln raye together last yr. had fun... gonna miss tt. could recalled the time i always had squabbles with my classmates...... the rumours my best fren made up. all those made me laughed.... no pt getting over angry actually. still remembered sec 1 days... still very immature and raw to the world. not knowing wat would happen and not taking things seriously. when life was ez and things could be taken lightly. although nth much happened during sec 2, it was the most precious. coz tt was da period when my frens- ema, aisyah, rash- got closer. the last 2 yrs of my sec sch life was awesome. fun, tears, anger, hatred were all part of the mixture tt sums up to wat 4g is today... or should i say 3h. i really am gonna miss u guys... i have this to say. i discovered myself with u ppl. u ppl made me more tolerant..and i thank u for tt. thank u for making laugh and cheer me up when i needed u ppl. im gonna miss the quarrels we had every now and then, which seem so dumb now. i miss my classmates sacarsm. really. we ahve acutally acheived a lot as a class.... and i appreciate the team work and co-operation tt u have put in. esp ivan and jerome.

aisyah- thank u 4 being there for me and goin thru all the sufferings together.
yuan2- take care girl... gonna miss ya... hope u'll come 4 grad nite
ah ma- i shall never forget ur bubbly character..... and ur cheeky laugh..
pei shi- i dunno wat to say to u, but juz wanna noe tt im thankful tt u are my fren, and study hard, k?
diana- all the best dearie....
kee yong- stay gd lookin boi!! take care of ahem... ok? if not...
tuck hong- all the best for ur eng..heeh
yun xin- if i've hurt/insulted u in anyway, sorry.
nasriah- keep doin well in ur studies gal... thanks for being my fren.
jerome- gonna miss u for ur stubborness...hehe
zi hui- hold on gal... it's the last lap... all the best 4 ur Os..
suz- gonna miss ur screeechy voice, and ur violent mood swings...
wilson- stay smart...hehe
atikah- thanks 4 being such a sweet gal... take care
victor- u freak! gonna miss exchanging sarcastic remarks with ya.... dun be lazy aitez?
fab- will miss ur voice, ur singing, ur pervetic jokes....
wan ying- staudy hard for bio, k gal? stay cheerful k?
zahid- stop telling stupid jokes and irritating ppl...
andy- thank u for putting up with me whenever we used to work together...
joycelyn- such a dearie.... stay frenly.. k? hehe...
alvin- hmmm.... all the best and stay intelligent!
liyaa- keep on bitching, and i noe u'll never stop. rite?
feli- dearie, study hard k? dun give up yet... miss ya...
khairul- grow up, face reality. other than tt, no comments.
shahidah- sotongz.... stop being blur gal.... oh yeah, pay up all ur debts b4 grad nite tau... owe $$ onli
yan lin- stay bubbly girl.. take care
erlina- dun get work up everytime k? chill...peace.
ivan- gonna miss u so much! u and ur dumb jokes.... be serious k?
michelle- lighten up girl! dun be so.... stiff? i dunno...
salim- keep tt gorgeous smile of urs k? gonna miss bullyin u..hehe
ema- im so lucky to have u as my best fren. thank u for letting me trust u. thank u also for making me suffer due to ur stupid jokes and rumours.... gonna miss ur noisy character,, gonna miss ur persistence...gonna miss u.
rash- thank u so much for standing by me everytime. lucky to have u as my fren.... havent see u ard lately... all the best for ur Os...
jon- someone who suffers in silence... but nowadays, becoming smarter. take care!
cindy- thank u for always having high spirits... keep on smilin!
elfi- keep on crapping, keep on criticising-though one day it'll get u in trouble- and stop day dreaming!
hui shan- study smart, not study hard gal... dun be nervous in front of strangers, aitez?
rahman- forgive me if i've insulted u in one way or another.... k? other than tt., no more. take care...

there... my kinda-last-words for my classmtes. soon, my kinda-last-words for my table ppl... u noe who u are!

4g, we have made teachers' life very miserable, and memorable for them. u did the same to me too.... once again, take care ya u ppl?? keep in touch... see ya ppl ard...

posted up some pics frm today... have a look k?

Smashed into pieces at 10/22/2004 01:13:00 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2004

dun u juz hate ppl who always copy wat u do? and they think tt they own the world by juz doin tt? im refering to neither of my frens. definitely not... im refering to my bro.. hah! cant believe tt im calling him bro. he SO doesnt deserve tt... he disgusts me with his childish nature.

firstly, yesterday, rajan and azam told me, or in fact complained to me, abt him. not tt i mind. but when they go on and on... and it is as if onli my responsibilty tt i have to take care every aspect of him, tt freaked me out. this is the story. he didnt do well for his fye, but he goes on with his damn boring life, smiling away. he doesnt show a fuckin care and concern bout his results. ya, maybe he doesnt wanna show it, but does he have to be so ignorant?! get a life! face reality! grow up! when i confronted him yestreday bout azam and rajan complainin to me, he gave me this freaking "fed-up" look on his ugly face. wtf lah.. if u cant take comments, sorrie lah. and i dun give a damn if u read this. u wanna complain to ur darling parents, go ahead. get this into ur undeveloped brain: i dun give a freaking damn! then, juz now, he changed the internet browser. i was like 'wat?!' i was totally cluesless at wat he was talking about. asked him to explain, he did, with a disgust and arrogance in his voice. arrogance coz he feels gd tt i have no fuckin idea of wat was goin and, tt made him looked as if he was the smarter one. wateva. u noe wat? i dun give a damn wat u change to the comp.. for all i care, if u, yes u, meddle ard with this comp, u are so dead. think u all smart and IT savvy huh? wateva... and tt makes u matured and all grown up? nah! u are so wrong!

sick of home, sick of sch, sick of life. im sick and disgusted of being insulted, pushed ard.... i hate when ppl have the worng impression of me. i hate when ppl jump to conclusion about me based one juz one thing tt they noe. i noe myself, and nth can change tt. but sometimes, i feel so alone. coz, i dunno who to trust. i dunno who i can talk to. i dunno who can understand me. i dunno who is willing to go thru troubles with me. i dunno. i really dun. do u think i like to yell and scream and scold ppl off? i dun.. but ppl forced me to. provoke me, and i wont have any hesitation to give u hell. i dun like living my life in anger all the time. i feel gd to be at sch, where ppl i consider frens can make me laugh, and laugh with me at the same time. however, i dunno if there is trust among us. i feel thankful tt u ppl understand, and cheer me up whenever i feel rotten. but im not really sure if ill be ur fren still after we leave sch. at home, i feel horrible. im locked up, and there's no trust given to me. no chance even to prove myself. once i fail, straightaway, relatives and family change a prespective of me. when i do sth diff, they believe tt i was under influences. i feel so torn apart when they blame someone else, but not themselves. they are so narrow. i dunno wat im talking abt... juz wanna let go wat im feeling now. god, i wanna go to sch. y cant my parents, esp my mom, stop first and think, for once, tt their daughter is growing up? tt her daughter does revolve ard changes and influences, but she still does think on her own and wants to be independant?

sometimes, im upset by this tots. but i dun want to. i am trying to be strong. i cant go thru this alone. i dun want to. i need my mom, frens, to understand me. to understand tt im being locked up in another world by my mom. and i want my mom to understand tt i want to be free, juz for a second. i wanna be free to make my own decision out of my own will. i wanna be free in expressin myself, face to face with reallity. sadly, i cant.... i

Smashed into pieces at 10/21/2004 02:46:00 PM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

argh!!!! im back!!! HOORAY!!! so damn fucking happy... *squeals and bounce for joy* yahoooo!!! hehehe.... hahaha.... im blogging again... so, be prepared coz it's gonna be realli, realli, realli long!

ok... i forgot a lot of events tt im supposed to update bout. oh well, latest happening: o level sci prac paper. it gave me a boost of encouragemt, as it was do-able. yeah, not every subj has gotta be like tt. but for a start, im feeling gd bout the Os. hehe... oh yeah! liya cut my hair on mon, during the quarantined period. i cant believe i let her do it. aisyah and liya and erl was like experimenting stuff with my hair. so remas... ugh. but it was fun though. thanks gerls! after all tt, played uno game with the mly boys. liya, dun be angry k bout me not doin my hair the way u want it to be? hehe...smiles!

wat else? i cant remember lar... oh. today, wenta body shop. bought these stuff, like moisturizer like tt. total: $61. and my mum onli gonna pay my back 25 bucks... geez...nvm. wenta try out some stuff for prom nite... hehe. mcm da bis Os gitu... me, ema and elf were like goin ard tm like as if there's no more burden in my life. AND, while we were in the bus, ema and i saw WAK! hehe... u ppl mite not noe. but wateva. woah!! hehe... cool rite ema? hmmm... elfi was realli hilarious in class. we cabut geog class, stayed and crap in lib for the whole hr. wanted to cabut sch during recess, but sadly, the sch was having games day or sth like tt. and there were like ppl all ard... vic, wilson, lin bin, jon and tuck hong was damn lucky. they manage to sneak out of sch.

hmm.. heard bout mr retard standing up for suz and ema, izzit? aww... tt's was an exceptional sweeet gesture boi... gd job! hehe... come to think of it, u are a gentleman afterall...

attention 4G peeps: gotta go to sch on fri, if not, no testimonials. juz a threat i guess, but juz come k? it'll be the last day when the class can come together once again.. hehe. take snapshots k? come k 4g? i miss u peeps... even the lil squabbles we have in class.

cant recall the stuff tt happened... dont think u peeps realli wanna noe as well.. rite? but im sure u ppl miss me LOTS! hehe...

yeah, to all muslims reading this, selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan yg mulia ini.
to all peeps takin Os, all the best ya? wake up and study already if u still have not realize it's onli a week away... in fact, it has started actually. see??!! haiz...

miss bloggin so much... and im back!!! hahaha.... take care... adieu!

Smashed into pieces at 10/20/2004 04:26:00 PM